Muscadine Lines: A Southern Journal

Wish I Knew

Kate LaDew


when he walks away
wishes she knew him better
won't be the same
if he comes back
won't remember he met her
before fire came
sent him into black
can't claim
he didn't know any better
facts laid out, who to blame

it's a shame
didn't know his eyes looked like that
in the slowness of light off chrome
every line and tear of his face
something she should have known

maybe it's just misplaced
maybe she has the whole picture somewhere far back
maybe she'll find it when he can't come back
when it's too late
always so late
shadow she'll step into when she turns on the news
shadow she had so long, brother she didn't choose
gone

didn't know his eyes looked like that
might want back what she never really had

so long, see you around, little boy just found
wish I knew you better
won't be the same if you come back
won't be the same if you don't come back
can't claim I didn't know any better

it's a shame
your eyes are so blue
wish I knew

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Kate LaDew is a recent graduate from the University of North Carolina at Greensboro with a BA in Studio Art.

© Kate LaDew

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